"हाथ ज़ख़्मी हुए तो कुछ अपनी ही खता थी ,
लकीरों को मिटाने चले थे किसी को पाने के लिए।"
Lucky are the people who find true love in their life, but luckier are those who comes back to their senses before the time runs out. Today my friend's FB status says, "I really admire people who still try to hold a smile when they have every right to break down... " and it feels like it was exclusively written for me to inspire me. Today the reason for me to smile was taken away by the person i believe was my reason to smile. After, all the things happened with me i am actually puzzeled from where do i start to recollect the broken fragments of my heart and glue them together? Ofcource she was not bounded to let me know all the things clearly, why should she? she was not commited to me, so how can i say whatever she did was ethically wrong? People do not buy respect, they earn them. she was getting enough respect from me because somewhere i felt she deserve that. "6 years, i never thought my heart will stop yeilding respect after the sixth year, but she has never cared, if she felt so she was getting the thing which was never her's then why was she crying? when after giving the right thing to the wrong person i was not crying, WHO THE HELL HAS GIVEN THE DAMN PERMISSION TO THIS GIRL TO SHED HER TEARS ON ME? who the hell has given her permission to make me feel guilty for what i havent did? who the hell has given her permission to complaint against my uncivilized behaviour, why the hell she was expecting herself to be understood when she was failing to explain herself? that was giving a feeling, she was trying to make fun of me.
This is my punishment. Yes, this should be my punishment if it took me 6 years to understand that she do not value me when out of 6 i waited 3 years just to deliver my apology to her, she do not value my efforts made for her when i selflessly converted a human being into a machine which can convert her problems to processed solutions, she had never cared for my belief when i said i loved her for her Principles. The step she has taken clearly indicates she was very much comfortable loosing a friend, ME. Still she was expecting me to stay calm?
W H Y ?
Oh My God, that was unhumane............ But i am not the only person in the world who is traveling across this traveil, there are too many of us, so? what do they do in such kind of situation? what is the most expected reaction from we people? like others why dont i just give a damn to her and end every kind of relationship from her? why i am overreacting?