"While i was busy in ANALYSING MYSELF, i realised i missed ENJOYMENT, While i was busy in enjoyment i realised i missed OPPURTUNITIES, While i was busy in gathering opportunities i realised i missed PEOPLE WHO LOVED ME, While i was busy in getting back people who loved me i realised i missed BEING MYSELF..... So now i live to the fullest WITH NO REGRETS"

Thursday, October 21, 2010


She has changed her caller tune from "Pyar toh... ho jaane do" to "Tum jo aye zindagi mein... baat bann gai". I don't really know what was there in her mind, but i started relating this particular thing with my presense in her life. I have also set an "indian Groove" caller tune to impress her. I know this is very silly thing to consider but i really started thinking this way only, and till that time all the things were perfectly allright.

I've already sensed, there was something wrong in her behaviour. her way of speaking, her gesture, her IQ, her choice of hairclips, her toothpaste, her lack of knowledge about my profession, that must be anything, i dont exactly know what was that, this could be anything may be that factor is not even in the list, i dont really know what was that. But one thing i was sure from the beggining is that this is not the gurl of my choice.

I believed i was far better than this girl..., in every respect, sometimes i doubted this is my ego who is prompting from my inside, my superiority complex or something else, but soon i realized no, i am wrong, i am really better than her.

Although she was taking enough intrest in me, but seemingly to hide something from me. I was extreamly coutious while dealing my emotions with her. because i have already taken 2 love antibiotic doses in past 5 years. I have again changed my caller tune from "Indian groove" to "Chokhe chokhe, eto kotha" a regional song we both belong to, purely for the sake of impressing her.

This time she is more genuinely impressed. We have already planned our honeymoon spots, name of our children, sequence of producing first boy and then a girl baby, color of curtains, expendeture of our salaries and savings after marriage, even when i was also not sure and ready to accept her as my wife..., What wife? FUCK! as a girlfriend even.

When asked about her relationships she named a punjabi boy, who is no more in her life, when asked about people at her vicinity he named a boy who is her friend, but not a marriage material for her she believes, and she included few girls who are not important to mention here.

Days passed, misbelief strengthens, faith diminishes...... and love ha ha ha, has never even existed lol.

Finally the day arrived when i raised curtain from every suspense............



  1. sm times fake feeling..over rule ur mind...n results in bad consiquences..these fake feelings r illusions.....k

  2. i think lv is always an illusion, b'coz u r completely satisfied when u dnt knw each other n become unsatisfied when u completely understand each other, b'coz than u completely understan that neither c is d 1 i had desired n nor i cn make her like that.........:)